Today was a day that threw me completely for a loop. I was creating a document at work when I stopped to check my personal email. The first email was from our church clerk announcing via email the passing of a church member. This particular church member is one of the sweetest, kindest, and most genuine persons I’ve ever met. She and her husband have always been so loving towards me even when it was just my son and I. The thing that shocked me the most was the fact that I just saw this woman on Sunday. She was happy and looked so healthy. She spoke pleasantly. I hugged her. She was fine. Today, she is gone. And I am shocked.
It’s been with me the rest of this day,partly because FatherWinter and I recently had a disagreement that had me keeping to myself for a couple of days. I purposely avoided conversation because I didn’t feel like speaking.In hindsight, it was a very selfish way of thinking, but I didn’t care. I felt like I preferred to keep to myself instead of speaking to my husband.
Today, I was struck by the thought of what if God decided to call me home as quickly as He called this dear woman. Wouldn’t it be a shame to pass and the last moments I had with my husband were moments in an argument? Life is so short. We have no idea when our last breath will come.
I certainly hope that I am allowed to grow up and happy with my husband. I hope we get to have grandchildren and great grandchildren and even great-great grandchildren. I want to travel more and smile more. I certainly hope God allows that.
Tonight, I came home and sat with my husband, glad to see him, and said a prayer. My heart and prayers are with the husband and children of our lost friend. But we know we will see her again. I know she is in Heaven. Wow, to see what she is seeing right now. To have the fellowship she is having. Wow.