Sorry, I’ve been a bit absent. Truth be told, I wanted a little time to catch my breath from the past couple of days. On 5dp5dt, I was feeling really, really bummed because I didn’t feel anything. By anything, I mean anything. I have been pregnant before. I’ve even had chemical pregnancies advance with pretty convincing symptoms. This time I felt nothing. Not even a little bit. I was disappointed and figured I was out completely. So, I decided to log onto Instagram and saw several of my fellow #TTCsisters showing pregnancy tests at 5 and 6 days past transfer with faint lines and not so faint lines. I figured if I wasn’t feeling anything and the test could confirm that, then at least I would know right? I am also more than able to admit that there was a part of me that would see a line on my test. It worked…kind of.
I found a couple of tests still in the house from my last testing frenzy. The problem is they were blue dye tests. Every single false positive or chemical pregnancy test result I have ever received has been from a blue dye test. So, while I didn’t want to necessarily put my trust in the test, I used what I had and this happened….
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| Hope your resolution is up. There’s a faint blue line behind that horizontal. |
I had a positive. Faint, but it was there. Or was it. Because I have come to trust the honest opinions of the ladies in our #TTCcommunity, I posted the result and asked for opinions. Everyone saw the same vertical blue line. BUT, several of the sisters admonished me to remember what I already knew. Blue dye tests are unreliable. They asked me to try the first response early response test.
Well, silly me, I grabbed the wrong ones and got the first response rapid response tests instead. They don’t provide early pregnancy results. So, I came up with this when I tried.
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| The top two were taken 5dp5dt. The bottom two were taken at 6dp5t. The CBs are the only ones that register positive. |
There were no clear positives on the FRRR tests. So, discouraged, I promised myself that I would not test again until beta. But I was fooling myself. I was so disappointed because yesterday, all I felt was a bit of nausea. Even that was come and go. I just wanted to see the test again. Just to be sure.
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| No doubt there, it’s negative |
And with that, here we are. I will not test again. I know the result. I know that it’s done. I know that we we have to try again. I know that we are fortunate to have five more chances before it’s up for us. I am trying to have hope, but I’m pretty sure this cycle is a loss for us.
I’ll keep you updated on Friday when we finally have our 14-day beta.
Have a great day.
-K
