IVF CD21: And then there were none (3dp5dt) …

So, there I was trying to convince myself that I absolutely would NOT google track symptoms or lack thereof.  I also promised myself that I would not stress.  No matter what happened, no matter what came, no matter what I thought or may not have thought about symptoms, I would not stress!

Then, I received a phone call.  It was late.  I was supposed to have heard from our nurse A. yesterday regarding the remaining embryo and if it made it to freeze.  When I didn’t get a call, I thought nothing about it.  Today, I decided to call her and her voicemail let me know she was out of the office on conference this week.  No biggie.  I figured I’d leave a message with the front desk when I returned from lunch.  They beat me to it.

One of the nurses, G., is filling in for A. while she is away.  She called and informed me that we actually had two remaining embryos trying hard to divide after transfer.  They tried.  One made it a bit further than his brother.  Then, they both stopped.  No more dividing.  The clinic gave them 7 full days just to see if the extra time would help them divide.  It didn’t.

So, there are no embryos to freeze.  If this doesn’t work….if the two beautiful babies who are currently (hopefully) attaching and growing decide not to stick around, we will have to start all over.  And just like that, I felt the cramps and the sadness.

I know I shouldn’t give up.  I’m not.  I know I shouldn’t count our transferred babies out.  I haven’t.  But I feel loss for the emrbyos that didn’t make it.   I’m still hoping and praying we have a great result and soon!

Have a great evening!

-K