Hello everyone. It’s that time again. I sit here the night before Beta and honestly have no idea what tomorrow’s results are going to be. I remained true to my word and I didn’t test at all. I have managed to stay pretty busy during this TWW, but that doesn’t mean that I haven’t had my moments.
I’ve been watching with cheers and excitement as so many of you have celebrated #BFPs on days 5, 6, 7, and 10 of 5dts. I’ve read your symptoms of nausea and cravings, of breast pain and fatigue. I don’t have any of those. I have no breast pain. I have had occasional waves of nausea, but I blame it on the fertility supplements and my mind (which is an extremely powerful muscle). I did have two toilet tissue wipes of pink spotting and then nothing. I have also had a few days of pretty intense cramping and then nothing with the exception of this afternoon. I honestly have no idea of what tomorrow will bring.
I’ve been loving my body as if I do have confirmation though. I’ve been trying to eat healthier. I’ve been making sure that I’ve been taking all of my meds. I’ve been trying to stay as stress free as possible. I have been preparing for this beta and hoping that it brings good news and numbers. But, it may not and while that would hurt, it would be okay as well. We would just keep trying until we have exhausted our shared risk and our options. Wow, I hope it doesn’t come to that.
I spoke to nurse A. today and she told me that she has fingers crossed and prayers that this is our cycle. I pray it is. I really do. How absolutely amazing it would be to have a positive pregnancy test for Christmas. We will see.
Please drop by tomorrow and we’ll see what the results are. Praying for great news.
-K