So, I am trying NOT to get excited. I am also very cautious in sharing this. I have been cramping off and on for the past two days. I shared a couple of Instagram posts about it. They haven’t been filling me with a warm and fuzzy. Tonight, the cramps reached a fever pitch. I was on the verge of tears because they really hurt! I told S. that I didn’t think this worked and went to the bathroom because it was time to take my Endometrin. I went to the bathroom first and upon wiping discovered pink blood that only appeared when I wiped. I immediately thought implantation bleeding as I remembered this vaguely from my son’s pregnancy a decade ago. I used the vaginal insert tool and when I withdrew it after inserting the tablet, there was a scant amount of pink there too. I wiped again and nothing. Then, I thought…too late for implantation bleed, right? Anywho…
I flew down stairs and told S. that this may have just worked. He wisely told me not to get to excited, but was smiling himself as I explained. I still have cramps but it is accompanied by back aches. The cramps now aren’t horrible, but they are still there.
I still have NOT tested and I will keep my promise to S. not to. I hope to not be disappointed on #beta day, but I can’t do anything but pray and not stress now. I won’t be sharing this news on IG in a post. I also won’t share it with my two “real-life” #ttc cheerleaders as there will be no point if this isn’t good news.
For now, I’m going to enjoy being pregnant unless proven otherwise. And I am going to continue to joke with S. about baby names just in case.
Have a great night everyone.