DISCLAIMER: This post contains information about our pregnancy. Because I know all too well how these kinds of posts may affect my fellow #ttcsisters and #ttcbrothers, I include this disclaimer to forewarn you. I understand how much these posts can sting and promise to continue to add the disclaimer on any post that may be related to this pregnancy (assuming viability) so that you may have the option to bow out of reading. I understand.)
Hello everyone. Today,our little bean passed a major hurdle in this journey. Today was graduation day from the fertility clinic. I had no idea how nervous I actually was. I went in and the receptionist said that I didn’t have to sign in. So, I sat down and waited to be called. It seemed like forever and when my name was called I walked into the sonography room and prepped for the doctor.
‘Please let there be a heartbeat’ kept repeating itself over and over again in my head.
The sonographer inserted “Wanda” and pretty soon there was our little bean on the screen. I zeroed in to the heart immediately. It was just flickering away. The official count was 173 beats per minute. Baby was so much larger than last time and was a bit active today.
The tears flowed and it was a beautiful moment.
The staff was kind enough to leave the video of the baby’s heartbeat on the screen and let me record it on my phone. I recorded it for S. who wasnt’t able to join me today.
When we left, the doctor gave me a copy of my records and off I left. This afternoon, the family went to bible study and was just overjoyed at the Word and the fellowship. Our pastor knows our story and has been praying with my husband for quite some time.
He came over and gave us hugs and prayed over our little one in utero. His wife, a beautiful woman, shed tears of joy for us. The support system has been amazing. While our church family don’t know our struggle with infertility, I think a large portion of them guessed something was awry when the years passed and we didn;t conceive. No one has ever said anything, but their prayers have been obvious and their joy (those who know) has been wonderful.
There are still so many emotions that I have going on in my head and I promise to share all of them soon. Right now, however, I just want a nap.
So I will write you all again soon. Have a great evening.
-K
